I woke up thinking today was Tuesday. Funny how Time flies especially when you’re doing nothing. Well it fells that way since I’ve fallen behind on the things I initially set out to do, and like every other thing I didn’t ever get to do, I somehow convinced myself that there is a good reason for that. A good reason, or a great excuse? I guess you will never know.
BUT I will, because no matter how hard I try, I cannot bring myself to lie to myself. (how many times can I use “myself” in a sentence?) I digress. You see how easily distracted I get, the network of rails that guide my train of thought must look something like;
one minute I.m hyper focused and a fly flies by and poof goes my focus! (do flies call us walks?)
you see what I’m saying?
I am a genius at coming up with reasons why I should leave the work I have to do now for later.
I am a genius at procrastinating.
I cannot hold myself to the same standards I hold other people.
I cannot keep a commitment I make to myself (focus Ali).
I am easily distracted.
And I take undeserved breaks in the name of self-care after doing the bare minimum.
I am a lazy Nigerian youth.
Like I mentioned in my last post, this excess time on my hands has inadvertently aided my procrastination. I can always do it later, I tell myself. There’s no need to hurry, you have no deadline to beat. You are your own boss (although I’m jobless),
See my unproductive life na. As much as I hate routine, I HAVE TO intentionally return to it and create a system for myself if I do want to accomplish my goals. Mind you, this is not the first time I’m making this sort of pledge to myself. Before leaving Home to this “foreign” land, I placed my right hand on my chest and made a similar pledge. Yet here I am, ironically like the guys we love to hate, after four years in office making the same promises; I will change.
Unlike those guys, even as I write it for the world to see, nobody can hold me accountable, but myself (hmm, just breathe Ali). I guess my shame might be greater if I disappoint, but if I can disappoint my parents, who TF are you? And that’s me doing it again. Making great excuses before I even begin.
It has not been easy so far, I must confess. Moving from a place of 20+ hours of electricity daily to a place of less than 2 hours, adapting hasn’t been easy at all. I’m not even going to talk about feeding or transportation and other expenses. I am beginning to learn to live with lesser than less. I find myself planning delicately before I make any move because, resources are minimal. It’s like I’m back in school again but this time around without the funds and support. I’m very lucky to have a great host who has been doing most of the heavy lifting for me.
At times like this when things are tight, I can stretch a thousand naira for a week and still have change to spare but as soon as I have small funds, once I break a thousand naira, it seems to disappear almost immediately.
The thought of getting a job has crossed my mind but as you know by now, I remain undefeated at coming up with the best excuses. 😀
There is something about going through hard times that seems to bring clarity of purpose and that is exactly what I need. I’ve been here a little over a week and it already feels like a month. I am exhausted physically even though I barely do any physical activity, but it’s not all bad. I can say for sure that my mind is in the right place. My mental health is getting better as I am in an environment that challenges my thought process. My confidence is growing too!
Speaking of physical activity, I will start working out henceforth. At least give myself a proper reason to be exhausted and maybe, just maybe not end up look like a starving refugee.
My Daily workout routine will consist of the following;
- A hundred push ups,
- A hundred sit ups,
- A hundred squats,
- A hundred dips,
- A hundred mountain climbers,
- 30 minutes of cardio, and
- 5 minutes of planks.
In no particular order, I die here!!!
Hopefully I don’t die sha… I’ll be posting updates on social media, mainly on my Instagram account, so be sure to follow me there.
This is I hope would help me manage my time better, cut down on making more excuses and eventually curtail my excesses.
Thank you for reading ♥
4 thoughts on “EXCUSES”
hahahahaha you’ll not only die here you’ll dye hair. Good luck with that work out
Lol maybe I’ll dye my hair, but the workout is hard sha
It should be! 100 push ups you try sha. I’ll faint.
EXCUSE me. May I comment? You’re very welcome. Oh sorry, I think there’s a transmission confusion. Lol.
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